April Showers (Bring May Flowers?)

    It's no secret to those who've been following my more mainstream social media that I've sort of been going through it the past few months. The past two have been nothing short of chaotic, but I think as I enter May, I'm doing my best to keep my head held high.

Nickel "Inanimate Insanity" Plush, pictured next to an Un-Official Baseball plush, both adorning Red Hairbows. (2025).

Nickel "Inanimate Insanity" Plush, pictured being an "iPad kid" (2025).

While the dark has been... Admittedly, consuming... I want to have hope that May will bring some light to my life that I feel I really need right now. See, as I enter May, I approach it with this:
- A good job opportunity (Comic artist)
- Great event opportunities (Small Business)
- Time to reconnect with loved ones (Particularly my younger relative, who I've been unfortunately too busy with work to really spend time with/give attention to, despite really wanting to)
- Some brand new connections (that are really seeming like they're budding into a potential friendship!)
- And my pre-existing long-distance friendships are more dearer to me than they ever have been-- Not that they weren't before, but now, after the things I've experienced recently, I do confess, they have won over my soft side. <3
- My mentoring has taught me many valuable skills I can walk away with.

...and more.

    I've come to learn this month that I really like indulging in my hobbies. Obviously, who doesn't, but like... Really.
I've grown to really appreciate them and find/make time for those small moments between all the chaos because it really does help me unwind. Bracelet making, art, watching movies and tv shows, laying in my cozy loft bed, gaming with friends, decorating my room, playing my music on blast, acting like it's Halloween when it isn't, writing... There's a lot I've been doing to really get in touch with the things that bring me joy in life again. It's therapeutic. It's... Healing?

Here's a collection of
my joys recently.

I also happily welcome the halfway point to October. It's finally here, and to say I'm thrilled is an understatement. Soon it will be Summerween!!

    Speaking of things that heal me and make me happy, I've once again been making use of my wellness resources, and I've gotta say, I'm really proud of myself for getting by the way I have. Sure, I've had my moments, and life doesn't always feel like rainbows and sunshine to me these days (hell to the no), but... For where I'm at, for the way I am, I'm proud of myself. I keep telling myself I should be, that I'm making progress, and I shouldn't be too hard on myself. It's tough, but I'm doing my best... That's all  I could ever ask of myself. 


I am looking forward to spending May taking on these exciting and (some) new adventures. 

On another note, The VOID Community celebrated our 2nd anniversary/birthday! 

Nobody really knows how special this is to me except for me, but I'm happy and thankful to celebrate- Even though I haven't had the time to give my passion project the attention I've wanted to... It's still important to me nonetheless. <3

I leave you all with this:
shitty test tube (ii) drawing from my sketchbook...