Just popping online to say hello and greetings, earthlings!
It is currently 12:47AM as I'm typing this on a Wednesday night. Unfortunately, I do have work in the morning and should be getting some rest. Luckily, or I suppose Unluckily, I don't have a long shift later and I don't go in until later in the afternoon.
Usually I don't like working later in the day. I have a heavy preference for morning shifts and getting out earlier so I still have time left in the day when I clock out. I like working early. The only downside I can really think of is that I don't get to- Or I guess shouldn't- stay up late the night before. Though, that doesn't really stop me... #insomnia.
Not only that, but like... I really really love the time of night when everyone's asleep. I guess that's why I like getting up early, too. Like I'm not talking early as in 7AM, I'm talking 4-5AM. That's my favorite time to wake up (or stay up till). The world feels like it's asleep and I'm floating in the vast void of time, frozen. Forever encapsulated in that moment, allowed to be as young, or as old as I feel.
In a way, it feels like my own way of timetraveling. Sounds a bit unrealistic, doesn't it? But I like it, so I'll keep enjoying it. It's sort of like an escape from reality for a little bit. Detachment from existence before having to ground myself and come back to reality all over again.
Speaking of, I should probably get some sleep so I can get up early.
While I don't work until much later in the day compared to my usual schedule, I like to get up really early every time I have work. It just makes the hours in my day feel more productive and not wasted from sleeping it away or doomscrolling. I'm not trying to rot my brain with constant overstimulation or rep that blue light stare, yknow? I've already got RBF as an autistic individual, on top of my dissociative gaze... To the world, I may seem like just a soulless, empty Robot, but to me, I will always do my best to wear my humanity proudly.
Though, let's be real, the fact I wish I could remain productive without having to sleep, eat, take care of oneself, etc. (because it feels like a waste of time) doesn't really help my case, does it...? Nonetheless, that won't stop me!
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